Not really equipped to answer your questions, but as we have spoken of before, our lives have taken such similar paths.
Quote: It was in 1972 at the University of Texas where I was taking a course in astronomy for non-majors. I also took an astronomy class at UT in the late 70's to fulfill my science requirements. Thought it would be an easy and fun class as I was interested in Super Novas, Neutron and Dwarf Stars, Black Holes, etc, etc. I have to tell you it turned out to be one of, if not the most difficult class I took. I barely managed to pass it. It was much more involved than I ever imagined. Math, physics, chemistry, much which was way over my head! Funny though looking back, at that time no other planet had yet been discovered outside of our solar system, so it was all still conjecture, a numbers game and we all used to joke about how earlier astronomers actually thought there were canals and water on Mars! Turns out, doesn't it, that we were all a little bit full of ourselves.
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